Sorry for lack of posts. I’ve been sick? I don’t know if I can really call it sick. My whole body hurts, throat feels swollen, and I have this strong discomfort in my chest. Going to the doctor soon. Let’s hope it isn’t serious.
Sorry for the long period of silence. I’ve been taking some time to recoup and mull over Baltimore Comic Con. it was GREAT! Certainly the best comic con experience I’ve had so far. I got to meet Brian Stelfreeze, who was such a friendly person that it was astonishing. He literally talked to me for about 45 minutes on my work that I had with me.
He explained that my work was solid, but I was trying to hide my flaws with my knowledge of figure drawing. Which isn’t going to get me hired/noticed. He insisted that I figure out what sort of artist I wanted to be. Action like Jim Lee? Macabre like Mike Mignola? I had to find the voice of my work and work on that. Without it, my work wouldn’t improve. He also gave me a run down on perspective and scene building. Told me to watch my favorite movies and analyze my favorite scenes and learn how to build them correctly. “Be a director as well as an artist” as he put it.
Brian Stelfreeze greatly increased my confidence in my work and was really the highlight of the con for me. Right now I’m trying to find comics that evoke different feelings so I can analyze the art style and figure out what i’m missing. I’ll be back to posting art soon.
Baltimore Comic-Con is less than 2 weeks away, and I just drew the worst panel I’ve drawn in a while lol.
Erasers are the real MVP when it comes to comics.
Like, what blows me the most is that the last I heard of Robin Williams was that he was battling depression. If this is related, then it hits pretty close to home for me. I don’t know what he could have been going through, but depression is a bitch. Finding myself almost constantly depressed and others I know, please make an effort to talk to your loved ones. Help then through all the crap the world continues to just dump on people.
RIP Robin Williams
But this time, I think I understand why. The pages I’ve been doing, even my practice drawings, have slowly become less and less recognizable as something I may have drawn. For a time, I thought that was a great thing. “My art looks like ____’s! If I keep at it I’ll be working in comics in no time!” Seeing my art look different was exciting and made me think that new doors of possibilities would open after a while. Not to complain that these possible doors haven’t opened yet, it’s more about me not enjoying my art anymore. When I look at my older pages on this blog (Yes ,blog. Lets face it. This is becoming less and less of a portfolio what with all the text posts.) I can see what I was trying to accomplish art wise and get a sort of feeling of excitement looking at my old work. “I could have made that panel much bigger!” or “the rendering on this part is too weak, I should have gone over it more!”. My Iron Fist pages especially come to mind. But with my most recent pages, the fighting tournament one and now even the newest set, I can’t bare to look at them or even bring myself to finish them. I get a feeling that I’m doing something “wrong”. And not in the sense that I’m an amateur comic artist still learning the ropes. When I draw now, I feel like I’ve put certain limitations on my work to fit a certain comic look. A lot of “black”, less rendering, a more simplistic style, etc. By doing these things that I’ve seen other artists do, its made me feel distant from my work. I absolutely hate starting anything over or dropping it in the middle. But, I feel like I have to try this set of pages again, this time the way “I” would do them with all the new knowledge I’ve gained.